~How wonderful life is..... when you're in the world~

I'm about to get a little sentimental and go inside myself....Join me if you'd like.


In regards to the last blog, and enjoying the moments we are given.....Last night was the 2nd Elton John concert in town. I shared the evening with 9000 people, and I can promise not one experience was exactly the same, but each of them was incredible!
As a young girl I lived full time with my mother who to this day is the most incredible woman in the world ( in my eyes at least) and then I lived part time with my wonderful, adorable dad on the weekends.
My parents began sharing custody of me when I was quite young, and so all I knew was that I had two parents who clearly loved me very much,lived separately and had great admiration and respect for each other, regardless of the separation.

Because of this living situation I became extremely close to my mom. She was a big sister to me, a very best friend as well as a caring loving supportive mother.
My Dad, who is a man with few words, but the tell all eyes, always had the outdoorsy dad stuff planned for our time together.... you know, rock climbing, spelunking, skiing, dune buggying and so on .....we have always had a special relationship and never would I trade it for anything.

Elton John was a big musical influence in my parents lives, and living full time with my mom, we together listened to this man A LOT!! ( any old friends can attest to this)
Together, we sang and sang and danced......and danced.... one song in particular... BENNY AND THE JETS!!! Ohhhh how that song brings me right back to my mom and her WAY over exaggerated "jetssssssssss"
I lost my mom when I was 20, and she was a beautiful young 47, a month before her 48th.

For those of you who have also lost someone that close to you, you will completely understand when I say that the smallest things, at the oddest times remind you of them.
Music is a big one!!!!

When I heard Elton was in town I knew immediately that I needed to go..... and who better to go with than my Dad:)
Talk about an emotional show ...... from the second the lights went down and the music began thumping through the arena... .my heart began a 3 hour race.
Tears were readily available at any given time, and joy was an absolute given by looking at both my Dad and I.
When BENNY AND THE JETS came on, and the place LIT up, so did I.
I felt as if at that moment, I WAS my mom. Talk about a powerful feeling.... the power of music.
The power of thought.......
The power of Love. True, unconditional sick to your stomach love.


OK, OK I'm done my internal spew ....lol
Sometimes it just feels good to get it out.... in printed word  or spoken.....
If you have lost someone and have a hard time remembering their laugh, their smile, their silly little habits.... whatever it may be that you miss...... listen.
Listen to the birds, listen to the ocean, listen to the silence, listen to "THE SONG" if there is one.... and allow yourself to 'go there' be sad if you feel sad, cry your face off.....

it feels really really good to be with them again :)

XOXO
~Kyla